My heart aches
No one has hurt me
At least not in the immediate past
It’s the expansion
Looking down the well of my love and seeing no bottom is terrifying
Being not met for so long
Not being seen for so long
Being a part of unbalanced connections for so long
I got used to swimming in the shallows
I have yet to explore the depth of my Loving Energy
My Heart Cracks open a little more
The muscles tearing themselves making room for growth
I have explored my grief, my rage, my sorry, my frustration, my anger
I have cut the psychic cords to my parents
Learned all about the undertones of communication
I have traveled down into the Depths of the Deep Dark
Going so far down I almost lost myself
But I came back a MAN!
I have done all of this mostly alone
I say all this because
As I stand here gazing at you
There is SO MUCH MORE then meets the eye here
I am not here to fucking talk about the weather
I am here to see who can meet me!
Who can see me!
Who wants to be a part of what I have!
Who can hold space for me!
I know I have that much
Plus a whole lot more to offer in return
As I stretch and push and pull and struggle my way into embodying this demand
It scares the be-Jesus out of me
Years and Years of giving my time and attention to the wrong people
Was like being malnourished without food or water in the middle of the desert days away from civilization
Like a Lion just being released into the wild after years of being caged
Working towards embodying my ROAR
Like a newly Crowed King of my own Domain
I am uneasy with the position and power
Step by Step I make my way
It’s a process
I am mindful
I am watching
Who Will Meet ME?
This is the end of Part I
To be continued…….