Trapped in a prison of my memory.

Fighting out of a concrete cage that doesn’t exist.

Yet every time I get close, I can feel my face press up against it.

It’s as solid as the ground you walk on, with no shape.

It’s as small as a dust peck, with walls like a vault.

Looking for an exit for a place that no longer is.

Darkness comes again.

What channel do I have for the monsters of the night?

Fellow night creatures to play with.

NOT!

Sexual relationships to pour my erotic passion into.

NOT!

The stores are all closed.

Doors are locked!

Windows and gates are shut!

The streets are silent and barren.

Its time for the

PRINCE OF DARKNESS!

I USED TO FEAR WHEN MY DARK ENERGY WOULD RISE IN MY BODY. I WAS AFRAID OF THE DEMONS MIGHT. I WOULD FIGHT IT AND TRY TO KILL IT, NOT WANTING TO ADMIT TO MY DARKNESS.

THEN I CHANGED. I WOULD OPEN MY ARMS, TRYING TO INTEGRATE IT.

NOW I’M STANDING TALL, FULLY ENERGIZED.

HE NOW RUNS FROM ME! I HAVE BEATEN HIM, NOT DESTROYING HIM. I’VE JUST BEAT HIM INTO SUBMISSION. I NOW RULE MY DARKNESS. THE MASTER OF THE DARK DOES MY BIDDING NOW.

A CLIMAX IN A LOVERS EMBRACE,

HEAVY BREATHING,

AND THEN,

SILENCE.

HERE I AM,

ALONE WHILE MY LOVER SLEEPS.

THE HAUNTING HOWLING WIND KEEPING ME COMPANY.

FOR YEARS I DREAMT ABOUT CONNECTING SEXUALLY.

I THOUGHT THE LONELINESS WAS ALL THE  ISOLATION,

BUT HERE IT IS.

WIND BLOWING IT IN MY BONES.

SEEPING IN MY BODY,

IN THE MIST OF A LOVERS EMBRACE.